Erika
This is one of those moments when I would love, with all the strength of my heart, to make you feel the force with which my veins beat, the emotion that invades my soul, the infinite love I experience and the curiosity of a child. for discovering the destination to which this beautiful adventure called life will take me.
Years ago, if someone had said to me, "Look inside you, there is an infinite source of love and light, and it's the only thing you need to be happy", I wouldn't have listened. I would have replied with: “I lived an intense dynamic in my childhood, with my father, with my mother, also with my brothers, when we went to live in Machala, stumbles occurred when I entered university, and when I got married there were conflicts with my husband, etc.
Unknowingly, I was handing over control of my life to situations and other people.
At one point, someone appeared that I was listening to, but not as I expected. “You work here to this day” - my ex-boss told me one day.
I couldn't believe it. It was the company where I worked from Monday to Friday. It was the space to which I devoted much more than eight hours a day, to which I got up at dawn to prepare articles to publish them with clients, whose responsibility continued despite being on plane flights, in traffic, in waiting rooms. , weekends.
I clearly remember March 11, 2013. Through tears and heartbroken, 20 pounds heavier and feeling guilty about everything that was happening, I asked the universe a question:
Why am I getting up tomorrow?
When I walked through that company's exit door, the recognition I thought I possessed was gone and nervous commotion began, followed by indecision at not knowing what to do or say. I didn't know what to say to my parents or friends. I didn't want them to know that I failed, that everything went wrong.
Now that I look back, I realize that the search for recognition has blinded me. I wanted recognition from my parents as a very responsible daughter. I also wanted recognition from my bosses to feel accepted. As a child I learned that when you do things for others, they come back to see you, smile at you, thank you, and if you're lucky, sometimes they listen and understand. When that happens, you feel loved.
Today I can say that that experience, with which I asked that question to the universe, helped me to turn my life around and also to realize who we are.
On the one hand I learned that my actions towards others were due to myself and since then I have started to flood my world with my own light, I have continued to shine from within and now I am only from within. I listen to my needs and dreams, fulfill them and fulfill them. For some it can be a beautiful mirror, for others it can be that person who moves their demons.
On the other hand, I realized that we are all wonderful beings, complete beings, who can show love and compassion, respect and accept ourselves as we are.
Years later, in living this wonderful adventure of being a mother, I can recognize myself as the facilitator my children need and allow them to manifest their greatness, search within themselves, listen to their hearts and with that love build and live their lives. As well as recognizing that I too can continue to shine, being light, looking beautiful, showing myself vibrant with a glorious smile.
Reason enough to wake up happy every morning.
